Life as it is...

It was so windy and chilly last night but it was an over-all interesting and a great evening. My sexy BF finally got his new toy last night and it was a great sight to see how excited he was (or lack of it ‘smile’ – probably buried deep inside him). I don’t know what is it about gloves, but oh boy – I think they are hot on my man! I’ll leave it at that before some people assume everything I say on my blog is too sexual ‘cue for eye-rolling’. If you are above 18, nothing is too sexual.

I’m chuffed as of right now, I still have a few hours to go but I can’t really sit still! I am so looking forward to seeing the kids, the cricket and hanging out with his friends. Our camera has been placed on the dock to be charged – well, it’s actually charging right now. I haven’t a clue what to wear but definitely a pair of jeans ‘turns around and look at her tops’ – maybe I’ll go topless. Ooops. There I go again with dirty thoughts ‘spank spank’. Maybe I’ll wait for my baby to come home and spank me. Gee whizz.. there I go again! I just CANNOT stop!! ‘grin’.

In all seriousness, I was and am still touched by what the sexy Sportsman posted. As I mentioned in my comment box, I didn’t know he would post something like that – saying it all out in the open. He did, obviously tell me that he wanted to write something but wouldn’t let me read it until he’s done. Typical! :p

To make it simpler, here are my responses to his comment on his blog:

I also made use of the opportunity to tell anybody who was interested - the anonymous commentators, Jacqui and friends - that I am NOT claiming anything. I am NOT innocent and I never claimed this - NEVER. Ask the sexy owner of this blog - she will confirm this xx

I can vouch for that. He has never claimed he was innocent. Even from the beginning of our friendship – he never said anything about being innocent and truth to be told, most of the time he blamed a lot of things on himself.

He told me from the beginning what he needed to do to be sure. It wasn’t exactly what I expected but when you love someone, you let him or her figure things out in their own way. People might think it’s easy for me to say all this now because he chose me. On the contrary, it wasn’t easy for me at that time. He can tell you that it was very difficult for me to accept and now that he chose me – it does feel good but I don’t gloat on it. Also, it isn’t easy for me – even now because people will always have something to say. But like my gorgeous boyfriend said, we don’t care. We will read all the positive and negative comments, at the end of the day it is still up to us how to interpret or deal with them – together.

Therefore, if anybody thought that me and sexy are "hiding certain things" from each other, then you are mistaken. She knows everything about me - good and BAD, and I know everything about her, which is 98% GOOD, GOOD, GOOD...xx

Yes, again – I concur. Some people might disagree with how much information we divulged to each other – he would tell me that if only he worked harder on the 2^nd marriage etc – does not bother me. Or the fact that he still love the mother of his children – I can say that most women will not like to hear all these things. For me, it’s good to know how he is feeling.. his thoughts and concerns. Good or bad – I want to know and he has told me a lot since the last big discussion we had a few weeks ago.

I don’t regret waiting or letting him do his thing a few months ago. Say if he chose her, so be it. It was his choice to make, I couldn’t force him to love me or be with me. I’d do anything - ANYTHING to see him happy, and if being with someone else brings more happiness in his life – I’d back off. That’s unselfish love for you.